Fear and Hope

What is it that you fear the most in life?
Is it the feeling you might die someday?
Or is it the dread that you might end up poor and hungry?
Well, if you ask me I will tell you my fear.

For more than anything there is this terror inside me,
Which is making me feel so helpless…
There is this fear in me which makes me paralyzed;
And it is the fear of losing someone I love more than myself.

I can feel the monster consuming my soul like a parasite.
I may sound insane ; but I really don’t care!
For I have never been this worried in my life,
And I have never faced something this strong!

It is when you realize that there are some things beyond your control,
And some things that you can just watch and wait to  let it happen.
It is when every night becomes a question of survival,
And every minute passes with a silent prayer…

If I could find a little hope somewhere in my heart ,
A belief that everything will end up fine
I would have survived this dilemma,
I would have found my path…

I know that I must come out of it somehow,
As they expect I should fight my fear…
I try to close my feelings inside me,
I try to hold my tears and show a courage that is phony.

Lately it struck my mind as a sudden awakening,
That I should not fear, but only hope for the good!
As they say you can either surrender yourself to fear,
Or emerge out of it bearing hope in your heart!